I’m going to try this thing where I post everyday. So things might get messy and unintelligible.
Someday when I have enough confidence that it can be funny instead of frightening I might post my early attempts at writing.
A lot of it is pretty adorable but I was also just pretty insane. Insane in the sense that there’s no sanity. No logic or rational way of thinking that can be followed, it’s just total chaotic nonsense.
I think what is so bad about my early writing is I had no idea how to communicate what I was trying to accomplish.
I think that’s a skill most people have to learn in general with life. A lot of people don’t bother to learn it.
Instead of learning how to communicate what they really want a lot of people tend to hide what they really want and what they’re really thinking.
They just sort of copy and paste what the most acceptable things to want and think are then try to cut the rest.
There are a lot of ways to communicate, writing is just one form. Some use music. Some use art or fashion. Some even use their business and entrepreneurship. Some use their hobbies or their religion.
All of it, no matter what it is, to me at least, is a desire to be of use. Because anyone can copy and paste if they just want to be accepted.
But attempting real communication with other people is a lot more caring.
It’s giving a person something real instead of trying to get by.
I’ve always wondered how men feel about porn. Because I like men and I’ve done porn.
For most of my life I figured men were entirely disconnected. Like sex and feelings were separate entities in men.
I don’t think that’s true anymore.
I think I (and most women) have drastically underestimated how much men actually like women.
Men also drastically underestimated how much women like men.
I get why. There’s lots of women out there screaming about hating men. A lot of those women are the ones that love men the most.
But the rest of them are just copy pasting. They are not communicating.
Jess lanai 
2 responses to “Men and porn”
I’ve been able to separate the superficial from the emotional. Maybe it’s because I’ve had many strong women in my life and I value a woman’s worth in the family and society. I feel sex can be BOTH superficial and emotional depending on the situation. It’s a fine line between dominance and respect. Just like how you said you like men, I absolutely love everything about a woman and her body. I love most all shapes and sizes too. But at the end of the day, respect for a fellow human should be your guiding light. Sex should be fun for both people. Whether it’s rough or gentle.
I absolutely love watching your videos because of your authenticity (as I wrote in a previous post), then I read where you said your authenticity cuts both ways because you were/are impulsive . Never thought about that before. Thank you!
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I think everyone has different ideas of how they want their relationships and it’s all fine.
But I do think dominance is pretty healthy to a degree. It’s taking responsibility for something. I like men to feel dominant or possessive of me when they get into a relationship with me because they should feel like they are putting a lot out on the line. Like they are putting in a lot of time and effort and resources and therefore feel like they are investing in something they expect a return on.
It’s rather natural to feel a bit entitled to things we put effort into. That doesn’t mean we don’t have respect.
There is a bit of an ownership feeling when someone is putting everything out on the line for something.
Men that want to be more superficial and just have fun I’m not saying they don’t respect women.
But they just want to have fun. It’s not all that serious.
Like how you say you like that I was authentic.
Part of being authentic meant that I was pretty bitchy.
Because I put a lot of effort into a lot of things so I was a lot more impatient.
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