What is the real harm in porn?
I don’t know, it is probably doing more harm than good though.
What about the real harm in making porn for money?
Once again, probably does more harm than good. Some select few girls do create lovely lives from it.
They are a small percentage.
Some women are able to not take it too seriously and just use it to pay a few bills. Those are, believe it or not, the more disciplined type of women.
They use it for a very specific purpose and they don’t let their identities or their sense of self worth get intertwined with it.
Then there is the rest of us.
I’m very good at accepting fault.
In arguments I’m the first person to apologize. If I lose my temper or hurt someone’s feelings my emotions shift quickly to shame or guilt. And when things go wrong I’m the first person I blame.
These may seem like qualities of maturity but you have to also take into account that the reason I’m so quick to guilt and shame is that I do have a very impulsive personality.
So if I wasn’t quick to apologize for my strong emotions and recalibrate my decision making through shame, I’d be a psychopath.
Most people are normal humans.
Normal humans are pretty honorable creatures. They like to contribute to the world and do things that provide some purpose to some kind of greater good.
They want to have confidence that they are useful and valued to their communities and to humanity as a whole.
Doing porn lowers that kind of confidence.
Why does it lower that confidence?
I think because it’s too easy.
If I post a sexy picture of myself it will often get thousands of likes and upwards of half a million views.
Whereas my views on this blog stay around two hundred and maybe I’ll get a couple likes.
Sex is really easy attention for nothing.
And it’s attention that goes no where.
I can’t use it for anything else. Sex attention is just sex attention.
It doesn’t mean I’m nice. It doesn’t mean I’m smart or talented or anything. It gives me no purpose.
It’s just attention men give to get sex and they aren’t all that picky with it.
Most women can’t survive doing porn.
It’s too hard.
It drops confidence too low. It causes too much insecurity.
It’s getting too late and I have to go to bed even though I’m not entirely sure yet what I’m trying to say.
Porn is a complex topic to me. Lots of people consume and lots of people want to demonize it.
I did it and in a way I do appreciate that I did it. I think it gave me a lot of things I never would have had without it.
But I do know it can be dangerous. I’m not sure how dangerous.
All the feelings I had while I did porn are the same feelings I see other young women have that never did porn.
So now I do wonder if porn had anything to do with anything.
Jess lanai 